Banana Pancakes- Jack Johnson

I was making breakfast when I looked outside and saw this.

Look familiar? The lovely Audrey Inglis.
The same rainbow.

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Yesterday, I said I'd blog again and as you can see, that failed. But I'm sure no one reads this anyway so I'm technically babbling to myself, but hey, babbling is good.

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So yesterday was day 1 of being a vegetarian. I've tried this twice before and it has majorly failed before and I don't have much confidence in this, but let's just see how long it is before my mom makes something I can't resist to eat. What made me decide to be a vegetarian is that my world studies class watched a horrible video about the animals in slaughter houses and I couldn't eat anything after, much less meat. I'm just trying my best to ignore meat and see how that plays out.

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Today was day 2 and so far it isn't too bad, but I don't eat a lot of meat as it is. I'm super tempted to go make a huge turkey sandwhich right now, but I won't let temptation get the best of me. For me, I'm always consciously thinking about how I can't eat something so I have this weird feeling in my stomach and I crave meat. I'm trying so hard just to ignore it, but this blog isn't really helping. I'm planning on blogging about my vegetarianism and talk about the difficulties of not eating meat.

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On a less food related note, this morning I was making breakfast when I looked out my window and saw the rainbow that is above. It was so bright and so close. It was so cool that I had to grab my camera. Unfortunatley my camera didn't capture the colors as well as I had hoped, so those pictures are edited, but only so I could show the beauty of what I saw. Not only was it beautiful, but I saw that rainbow move. As you can see, it was behind a hill, but I watched that rainbow crawl over the hill and closer to me. It was the coolest thing ever. I really wish I knew how rainbows were actually formed. They are so cool and beautiful.

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So I'm super excited for this weekend and the slow reorganization of my room! The reorganizing is so much messy work so I'm actually going to go to work on that. Adios!

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"And if you're partial to the night sky,

If you're vaguely attracted to rooftops,

Hannah takes the stairs,

Cause she can't tell that its a winding spiral case.

Is she right side up

Or upside-down?

This Is What I Do In Photography

Since I wasn't able to post yesterday, I'm doing it now while I have time in photography. I'll probably post again later, but this is for now.

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So today I woke up happy because I have a presentation about the Sea Shepherd Conservation Society, I'm so excited for Friday and the cabin, school is almost over, I knew I'd be getting a peppermint mocha which is now in my hand, and the sun is up in a cloud free sky. Also, I'm not leaving for my trip across the states until the day after my 6 months with Justin. I'm so happy!

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So I need to start scanning my 35mm photos so I can turn them in to form a portfolio. I'll post again in about 12 hours!

And The Countdown Begins

Fire hydrant. Random inspiration. Beauty in every day things.
That is on my wall. Irony.

My kitty again!

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79 days until my birthday.

77 days until I'm in Yosemite.

41 days until the 4th of July.

28 days until it is officially summer.

20 days until I drive across the country.

19 days until 6 months.

18 days until I can drive on the freeway.

11 days until the season premier of Whale Wars.

10 days until I'm out of school.

8 days until Memorial Day.

4 days until I'm with Justin and his parents in Twain Harte.

10 hours until school.

9 hours until I leave for school.

2 hours until tomorrow.

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"I wanna fall in love with you, again

I don't have to try, it's so easy,

Who needs to pretend?"

What I Really Learned in Study Hall

Candle holders from my oma
A birthday present from the lovely Audrey Inglis My kitty!

One of my collages

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I'm so tired. There's no way I'm going to be able to pull myself out of bed to head to school tomorrow. I think the first day I'm out of school, I'm going to sleep all day. It sounds so lovely. I know I've said it a million times, but I really can't wait for summer. I love the heat. I love the freedom. I love clothes. I love everything. I just wish I could be on a beach in the summer. But not any beach. Either Santa Cruz, Capitola, or any southern California beach. Those are the amazing beaches with the super beachy people who ride those awesome vintage bikes I've always wanted, the legit summer clothes, and natural tans. I'd want to be there or downtown San Carlos or Palo Alto. No matter what a lot of people say about San Carlos, I love it. I've grown up there and I love all the family owned shops and the amazing resturants. And I've only been to Palo Alto three times, but each time I go, I wish I could try every resturant and check out all the cute, little shops on University Avenue. Or how could I forget Haight Street. I love Haight Street. Again, I've only been there twice, but I love everything about it. The people. The shops. The music. The aura. Everything. 8 more days of school and then let the fun begin.

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I'm so excited for my birthday! I keep reminding myself that I have 2 1/2 months before I'll be in Yosemite, but I can't wait! I already planned everything and I'm so ready to hike, bike, sight see, photograph, chill, and have fun! And the people I'm going with will make things so amazing. I'm going with my one and only cousin who I love dearly but don't see as much as I wish I could, 3 amazing friends, my sister, my mom, my 2nd mom (a friend's mom), my aunt, and possibly one of my mom's friends who I consider my aunt. Vernal Falls. Mirror lake. Lower Yosemite Falls. Yosemite Village. Curry Village.

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So I should definetly start on homework and finish reorganizing my room. See ya!

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"You're spineless and too much to take.

My kindness was a big mistake

And it gets me nowhere"

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Finally my computer works! It wasn't working yesterday and that's why I didn't get a chance to blog. So, the first picture is of my aunt on the hike to Vernall Falls in Yosemite, which suprisingly I couldn't find a good picture of. The second one is of the place I feel least comfortable, an assignment for photography, and it's of my dad's house, but that's another story. The third picture was also for photography because it was an after school activity and I chose swimming with my coach and all in the picture. Last but definetly not least is pudding, whipped cream, and half a strawberry made specially for my 2nd mother in celebration of Other Mothers' Day yesterday (if you've seen {500} Days of Summer you probably understand).

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So I have quite a busy day ahead of me and I have to go get ready for it. Bye!

Pancake Love

Teehee. Those were 5 of Justin's birthday presents. Chocolate chip pancakes.

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So I have nothing to say besides I can't wait for summer. But I think I've said that enough and I'm tired, so good night!

I'm Speechless

I am an award winning photographer. Weird, right? I got an award for outstanding achievement in the visual arts and my teacher's entire speech was about the portraits of my brother that I have, like the one above. Also, today I copied all my photography pictures onto a flash drive so I have them all and it was so difficult to choose just a few select ones to post, and those three were my picks today.

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So today was Justin's birthday and it was amazing. We were both so happy and I felt creative with all the gifts I gave him. Some he could actually use and others that came straight from the heart and mind of an extremely random girl but hey, he loves me for me so it doesn't matter. We hung out after school and I was able to go to dinner with his family to T.G.I.F. where I had the amazing Pecan-Crusted Chicken Salad. After a delicious dinner, we opened presents at his house and I got to be with him 10 more minutes before I had to go home.

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Guess what?! My dream came true! For my birthday, I'm going to Yosemite for 3 days with 3 friends! We won't be able to camp, but we are going to stay at a hotel in Mariposa and be able to drive into the valley everyday. I'm so excited because every one going is joining me in the quest of cramming a weeks worth of activities into the first 2 days, the third day being the day we are leaving and my birthday. I maped out my plans and I should be able to do everything I want and have a lot of down time. So this trip is my birthday present fromt my mom and the only thing left to want for my birthday? A toaster. We desperately need one considering my toaster always burns or undercooks whatever I put in it. Yay for randomness!

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But anyway, I had an amazing day and I think it's time for some sleep. Good night!

Light-Wash

So today I don't have that much to say. But what's new? So the first two pictures are of Yosemite. No matter where I travel, I will always find it the most beautiful place. I love it so much there and more than anything I want to go there over the summer. My mom has been toying with the idea of going to Greece, Figi or Tahiti since we weren't able to make reservations for Yosemite, but to be completly honest, Yosemite is like home to me. I love the dirt. I love the grime. I love all the work it takes to camp there. I love the river. I love biking everywhere. I love the freedom I have when I'm there. I can go up to a lake if I want, I can go to some water falls, or I can go visit the horses, one of which I've come to love and I call "Chase". Anytime I go over to the stables, he comes trotting along to say "hi" to whoever I've brought with me and he'll just sit there with us, even if we don't feed or pet him.

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I wish it was summer. I can feel the warmth of summer over taking my body. I can feel the freedom of the endless days. No plans. Nothing to do. Just whatever I feel like. The only thing I'm hoping is that I'm not stuck babysitting my sister all day. I just want freedom. I'm just so excited for the freedoms of summer. Is it bad I want to work during the summer? I just need money. I feel like I can't do anything because I don't even have an extra dollar to do anything. My bank accounts are at their bare minimum, I just spent $23 buying a friends old clothes and I only have $2 is change right now. I really have to get on my summer plans though. I have to take care of what classes I'm taking next year for school, I have to buy summer clothes, I need to somehow start making money, I need to sign up to do volunteer work, I would like an intership somewhere, etc.

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Anyway, by the end of tonight, I will officially be an award winning photographer. Weird, huh? I'll hopefully be able to blog about it tomorrow and maybe I will have some of my photos up here!

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Well I should do homework or something, so I'm off. Have a nice day!

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"Every time I look in your eyes

Can't control my heart,

I'm so high."

Plethora

Beach. Music. Love.

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So I've decided to try to post at least one post a day just so I can get my thoughts out and have a new photo up each day. That's another thing I'm going to try to do. One picture per post. Oh! One thing I'm really excited about. Tomorrow our school is having an arts award night and I'm invited for my photography! I don't have all my work that I've done in photography just yet because they are in the computers we use for photography, but as soon as I get them all, I'll slowly start to put them up. Yay! This week is going to be awesome because not only is the year almost over, but my boyfriend's birthday is wednesday, I might get new clothes tomorrow, I have the awards night tomorrow, I don't have swimming any more, and the list goes on. And just the backgroud behind the title of this, I love that word and for some reason it popped into my head, so there you go. Have a nice day!

Newsflash

So a while ago, it was actually my second blog, on http://iluvsoccr.typad.com/blog I made a blog called my addictions and I talked about things that I love. Well now, this is an update on things that inspire me.

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Lets start with the basics.

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Beaches. They are so beautiful. If you're lucky and not in Nor Cal, they are nice and warm. They are all so different but all share their connection to the ocean. Some beach are rocky, some, the sand is so fragile and small, some the sand is tan, others, white.

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Music. I love it all. I love that I can appreciate all music. I am yet to find music I can't appreciate. The only music that hasn't really grown on my is yoddeling. Not that I listen to it, but I tried once just to see if there was any music I don't like, and it didn't do much for me.

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Love. When you're so happy, you can look at the world from a whole new lens. You can see every aspect of things. And it's inspiring. Everything you see you can somehow relate to your happiness and weightless heart.

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Mini-Tacos. Okay, maybe they don't inspire me, but oh my god are they good. Thank you, Trader Joes.

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Arizona Iced Tea. If you've ever had it, you know it's delicious. Whether you have the fruit juice, iced tea, half and half, or energy drinks, yum.

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Pandora. Internet radio? Amazing. I love it. I find so much good music on it. Definetly check it out if you haven't already.

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Summer. I love summer. And not just because my birthday is in it. I love the heat. I love the time by the pool. I love the clothes everyone wears. I love being worry free.

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Vintage Cars. Enough said.

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Open fields. I want to just prance through them. I know it sounds silly, but I just want to grab a camera and someone with an urban outfit and just prance and photograph.

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Camping. I love it so much. This is the first year in 11 years that I'm not going to go camping with my family in Yosemite. We might go to Greece, Figi, or Tahiti instead, but I don't want that. I want the fun and dirty of Yosemite.

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Sunsets. I love them. Don't we all? So, I think that's enough said.

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Capitola. Capitola is the coolest beach town. I love it there. They have this amazing bridge for a train to go over this little river they have and it is so cool. All the houses and people there are so vintage, urban and costal. Downtown has the cutest shops and the most chill atmosphere. The beach is so nice (excluding the contaminated river) and in the summer mornings, the water is so refreshing and warm.

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Photography. Ever since I was allowed to use my mom's camera when I was a little girl, I've wanted to photograph. Anything. I think the most everyday little things make amazing pictures. They are so inspiring and beautiful and I love finding beauty in every day life.

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This last one is as inspiring as it is fun, but it is part of my life and I love it so much.

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Maui. Ka'anapali Beach. I love it. I've been there about 5 times in my life and I love it each time. The last time I went was last October and right when we got to the hotel, it was already dark but I wanted to go to the beach. So, alone, I walked over toi the beach in the dark and once the salty breeze brushed upon my cheeck, I felt I could breathe. I felt so free and weightless. I ran to the water and once the warm water covered my toes, I couldn't help but go deeper. The entire time we were there, my sister and mom wanted to stay at the amazingly beautiful pools at our resort, but the ocean was calling my name.

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So, yea, that's an update on me and my inspirations or likes. Hope you felt inspired, haha.

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Find what inspires you,

kjdhfjdhfkkAnd make it part of your every day life.

You have no idea how happy you'll be.

But I Know I Could Be Better

Get me out of here,

Get me on a plane,

And fly me somewhere warm.

Somewhere safe.

Somewhere I belong.

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Take me to a beach,

Let the waves crash over me,

Let me swim out as far as I can,

And let me keep swimming.

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Don't try to stop me,

There's no use in trying.

I'll keep going.

I'll keep swimming

Until I find land across the ocean.

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I'll forget about food.

I'll forget about sleep.

I'll just keep swimming.

I'll keep swiming until I find you,

Waiting for me on the shore.

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I'll just think of you as I swim.

I won't stop because if I do,

Fatigue will over power me,

And I'll sink.

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I have to keep thinking positively,

Thinking of you.

Of you waiting for me.

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If you weren't just across the ocean,

I'd swim across the world,

Just to see you again.

Just to prove I love you.

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I'd do anything to prove that,

And show you I care.

My Shadow Follows Me

Where I feel safest [:

I wish I could show you

how much you mean to me.

So basically I haven't blogged in forever.

Recently I've realized how low my self esteem is. So to make myself feel better about myself, I made a list of everything I'm proud of. Everything from being able to appreciate all music, to being passionate, to liking my eyes. Anything that makes me happy to be me. It made me feel amazing and I actually felt inspired by myself and like I could possibly inspire others to do the same.

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Also, I've realized how much is wrong with the world. Every day, I try to do a little thing. Whether it is send an email from http://www.chainstorereaction.com/ or inform myself about a cause or even participate in the amazing cause Random Acts of Kindness, ( http://therak.org/ ) which just does little every day things to brighten someone's day and bring happiness to the world.

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I love music. Just a random realization. I like electronica, dance, techno, house, screamo, rock, alternative, metal, pop, hip-hop, rap, reggae, acoustic, Italian opera, some country, etc. Most recently, I'm into reggae and acoustic. Anything chill. But I've also missed listening to metal, techno, electronica and screamo so I've been getting back into that. Pandora has become my best friend. Internet radio was the best idea anyone has ever had. I love being able to type in an artist and it just letting me listen to similar music and getting to know who it was by. Plus it has lyrics and little bits of info about the artist. (Side note: I'm listening to it right now and I just think everyone should know that Legend is the best album ever. Thank you, Bob Marley)

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Wow I've have a lot of realizations recently. Yay for epiphanies!