The Youth I Wish I Still Had

Today, I realized how young, innocent, and adorable my brother is.

No matter what he does, it's cute. I was putting him down for a nap when I realized that when he squeezed his little eyelids shut because I told him to, his eyelashes would move in this cute little way. Now, every one's eyelashes do it too, but I don't think it has ever looked so adorable. He can be a complete spaz and get away with it.

At the dinner table, he puffed out his cheeks, sat quietly, and rose his hand. We have no idea where he got it from, but he did it. We said "yes?" and "James?" many times until he said "I have to go potty." Only a 4-year old could get away with that.

I miss the imagination I used to harbour. After wrestling in our jumpy house, we deflated it and pretended we were in a rocket ship. We flew to the moon, found aliens, and he shot them. Before more would come and attack, we got back on the ship and flew back to Earth. Unfortunately, an alien attached himself to our rocket ship and when we got to Earth, James tried to shoot him again, failing. Then as we folded up the deflated jumpy house, the alien began to help us and we made peace with him. I wish I still could imagine the way he did. The enthusiasm he had in the game. I miss that.

~Mystery Note~

This is just me.

I don't know what I'm going to write.

I'm just going to let my fingers fly across the keyboard.

Maybe I could talk about the happiness I feel right now.

Maybe I will mention the love my heart is filled with.

Maybe I can tell you about how my cat just flew out of no where.

Or how "someday you will find me, caught beneath a landslide in a champagne supernova".

And I could ask "where were you while we were getting high?"

I could tell you about how I just added a ton of songs on my iPod.

And now my iPod is on shuffle, sitting next to me.

I'm not going to change whatever song comes on next.

I'm going to see what it is and I will listen to it.

I lied.

I changed it.

My elephant is looking at me.

No, I'm not high.

And no, the elephant is not real.

My stuffed elephant from across the room is looking at me.

His name is Principo.

Just thought you should know.

My mind is hopping everywhere and to you, this probably makes no sense.

Sorry.

Sorry again, but I don't care if you can understand this.

This is me.

You don't have to understand me.

Or my random mind.

But if you're reading this, you most likely know me and already know I'm crazy.

Wow.

I am proud of you for making it this far in the note.

Are you really this bored to read this?

Am I really this bored for writing it?

Yes.

So.

Valentine's Day is tomorrow.

Yeah.

I have nothing to say.

This is a first.

Irony: the song playing is "Say It Right"

Hmm.

I changed it.

Lalalalaaalaaaa

Have you ever gone to lala.com?

It's pretty legit.

Cheaper music than iTunes.

Gotta love that.

Music I feel like listening to right now:

A Day To Remember

Brittney Spears

Spoon

The Good Listeners

Tess Dunn

While on the topic of music,

I found some new stuff I love.

Why is this double spaced?

Whatever.

I can't figure out how to fix it.

Anyway.

New music I've come to love:

Jack Johnson

Millionyoung

Mat Kearney

Spoon

The Good Listeners

Laura Veirs

Oasis

Boys like Girls

Fruit Bats

Carolina Liar

Sparks the Rescue

Kris Allen

Hall & Oates

Broken Bells

Diane Birch

Okay, not all of that was new music I've come to love.

But those are the artists that have recently been added to my iPod.

Yay for free iTunes music!

So I think I'm going to go do one of my hobbies.

Lurking.

Not in a stalker-ish way.

But just hopping around Facebook.

Okay, yeah.

Kind of stalking.

But either way,

I'm out.